It’s been awhile. Two years, in fact. I haven’t blogged in a long time. Not for the lack of things I need to write about and process through… We’ve have some major events in the past few years.
My son was diagnosed with “very severe” ADHD, ODD, and SPD. And my daughter has been diagnosed with Cerebral Palsy. Each diagnosis has been a long journey, and even now that we have the diagnoses, it’s still a long continuous journey of navigating therapies, medications, funding sources, and other support needs.
I’ve also recently discovered my own ADHD diagnosis and started on medications that have helped tremendously. It’s quite common for parents of ADHD children to realize that they, too, have similar struggles without ever realizing the name for it.
My Own Journey
As a child, I often forgot things, lost things, was absent minded. Although, I had a high intelligence, so I think this allowed me to get by without the struggles some with ADHD have in school. I never even thought about the possibility of having ADHD, especially because I did not have the hyperactivity aspect at all. In fact, I’ve always felt like I’ve been “lazy,” avoiding challenging tasks, procrastinating until the last minute for every deadline, and leaving a trail of unfinished projects in my wake…
It was amazing, the first day I started on stimulant medication. I had the energy to rake the leaves in my backyard that had been piling up for months… And what really blew me away was the fact that I could finish raking the whole yard AND I even put the tools away when I was done! In past autumns, I would half-heartedly rake for a few minutes, then let the kids jump in the leaf pile. The rake left out on the lawn was an embarrassing reminder for days that I can’t finish what I start.
Projects and processes
Case in point, this blog. I have many a time started this kind of “project” and written a few posts, before becoming bored or overwhelmed, giving up for a few months and then trying to “get back to it.”
Well, here I am again, writing. I know that writing is a good way for me to process things, and I hope that my writing will help others in their own journeys as well. But I’ve come to accept that my blog will never be consistent or regular. I won’t post once a week. I might post 5 posts in a week and then not write any more for months. My writing may be on thousand different topics or none at all. I’ve often criticized myself for not being able to choose one topic to focus on for this blog. But I’m not going to be apologetic anymore.
My life is a mix of many different trials and challenges. So if you’re following, you can expect to see posts about whatever I’m learning about in each season of my life. Parenting is one of the big ones for me right now. Child development. The family system. Christianity. Relationships. Self-care. Grief. Local resources. Books I’m reading. Things I’m learning. Or you might not see any posts at all! Life gets busy. I get distracted with other priorities. But my goal is to write more often.
Anyways, follow along if you’d like, as I learn and grow. This is me. Living by love. xoxox